My marriage dilemma that I don't think anyone can relate to...

2021.09.25 03:16 itzmizzyyy My marriage dilemma that I don't think anyone can relate to...

I'll just cut to it, and then explain more. I don't want to be married anymore. Disclaimer: there's no abuse, infidelity, or any fundamental conflicts in my marriage. This is a personal issue.
I (29F) and my husband (29M) have been married for 7 years, no kids. We got married right after graduating, after dating for 3.5 years in college. I loved him, and never had any doubts about marrying him. He is the most loving husband, and has handled my emotional issues really well. My depression makes me pretty irritable and unkind at times, but he's always stuck with me. The first few years of our marriage, I felt fine about it, but for the last year, I've been wanting to leave it. I don't know if it's this pandemic getting to me, or that I've changed as a person, but I just don't want to be with him anymore, and I don't feel like I love him.
I am a major loner, and was never the type to obsess over marriage and relationships. We just happened to meet, fall in love, and decide to get married. But as we get closer to 30, the idea of buying a house, having kids, and doing life with him doesn't feel like something that I want to do. (FYI, he has told me that it's okay if I don't want to have kids, and that he would still want to be with me.) I want to be on my own, and live my life without being attached to another person. He travels for work semi frequently, and I pretend to miss him, but it's always the best time for me. Every time he comes back, I'm disappointed, but try to put on a happy face, while counting down in my head until the next time that he leaves. Being home with him all pandemic has made me want to get out and away from him. I go on extra long walks, take my time at the store, and make a lot of plans with my friends.
It started getting worse when I started wishing for divine intervention to end my marriage. I can't imagine him cheating on me, but deep down I wish he would (I know, it's terrible) or even worse, sometimes wishing he'd die in an accident or something (I know, it's REALLY terrible). It's not that I want him dead, I just don't feel like I have a legitimate reason to leave this marriage, so I wish there was a way out that didn't result in his pain. I've expressed SOME doubts to him, framing it as if I'm just anxious about the future, and he always responds lovingly and tells me that he's always here for me. It makes me sick inside because he is a great guy, and deserves to be loved unconditionally by someone, I just don't know if it's me. I've just grown up, changed a lot, and realized that I don't think marriage is for me. Lots of people think that, but those people are usually single, or in terrible marriages. I truly just want to be on my own, and free. I don't care about other guys or relationships, and genuinely don't think I would ever marry again.
I just don't know what to do because this is a feeling that I've had for about a year, and it isn't going away. He has no idea. And I definitely don't see how I could be open and honest with him without really hurting him. I love him as a friend, and I think I could stay with him, and we could have a decent life together, but I would so rather be out on my own. I feel so trapped and confused, and I've never known anyone to be in this situation, so wondering if there's anyone here who has.
TLDR; I don't want to be married anymore, but have absolutely no reason to feel that way.
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My games are just... incredibly sweaty now. I have 3.4k hours and every match is just extremely good survivors with great perks. I lose 4/5 matches because these survivors are VERY good, and I have the opposite problem against killers. They're all fucking brand new killers with less than 200 hours, or they're just running ruin/undying/tinkerepop or something similar.
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Am I the only one feeling like this?
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